Bla, bla, bla, bla, bla, bla, bla....

Today I'm gonna start my stay in the village I told you about due to my KKN. But, fucken boring last night! I had to stay in the village last night already due to the late transport that was supposed to let us back to the town before evening so we weren't supposed to stay overnight there. So the car supposed to pick all our bags and stuff up to the village was supposed to arrive at the meeting place at 3pm.

Lalalalala... they arrived at fucken 5.30!! Aaaaarrggghhh.... It was already late at the first place to go to the village.

Yet, it was raining.
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When we arrived in the village it was already 6.30 or something. Having found the first house, we unloaded the truck and kept some stuff on to unload them later at the other village quite far from where I stayed. It mildly rained.

It took some time to unload the truck at the first house so the truck went to the other village up on the hill 30-40mins later.

Anyway, so after we finished unloading the stuff and brought them inside the house, I asked everyone...

"Let's go back now otherwise it'll be too late!"
"Hmmm, hmmm... too dark. I think we have to stay overnight here tonight..."

So, yea, the road back to the town wasn't really facilitated by lights until you reach the main civilization. Stuff like that. Yet it was mildly raining and freaking cold.

They had reasons but mostly no options!! We had to stay! :((

Our plan was to not stay in the village last night. So this early freaking cold morning at 5.30 we decided to hit the road to go back to the town.

We will go back to the village later this morning. I'll probably get ready after posting this blog.

So, this is how it works. The KKN program is mainly about students staying in a village for weeks helping people living there to improve their life.

From today, I will stay in the village until the next 40 days. I will probably come back home here but it has to be brief and rare as we're not allowed to really go out of the village so often unless there's an emergency.

So, guys, from now until the next 40 days I will have my blog so quiet without so many posts.

Will surely miss blogging but kcuf I'm stuck!

See you again some time, peeps!!

\m/

Earth Hour March 28, 2009, 8.30pm was done succesfully in my house

So, just a couple of hours ago we switched off the lights in the house. Most of the lights. I managed to convince my parents and niece to turn off the lights at the time instructed. Although some other people in the house did complain. My mum and I even got a bit upset. Basically she privately said to me "They'll find out why we're doing this when something bad happens to this Earth".

Some people think it's a joke and useless action to switch off the lights for only one hour. Not sure if they are also those who think either throwing one empty pack of candy or cutting off one tree won't make any impact to the possibility of a big flood.

Or they're just rebels.

I don't know. If I did what they didn't, I thought I will be as stupid as they are.
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Here's anyway a video of me and my mum published on Youtube switching off the lights in the house at 8.30pm local time due to Earth Hour. Don't mind the language, it's Indonesian. It's only 1min 20sec long so give it a hit, guys.



God! I sound horrible different in the vid! Wahahaha...
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Some friends of mine like in Jakarta, Yogyakarta and Singapore shared with me that they participated the event by switching off the lights for one hour. Even in Jakarta the deliberate power cut was done massively. Different from what we did in Yogyakarta and maybe in some other places, the one hour without electricity in some parts in Jakarta was done totally by the local Center. Meaning it was not done individually from one house to another by the owner of the house but automatically and massively by the Center.

I thought it was really cool. And when I asked them how they all could agree with the campaign to turn off the lights they said that the celebrities helped spread the campaign. The using-celebrities system worked pretty well. The people agreed to let the Center to turn off the electricity in their residence for one hour to support the Earth Hour campaign.

Whatever how technically this Earth Hour thing works to really save the Earth, I was glad having participated and supported the campaign in order to do anything possible and harmless to save this small but priceless Earth.

See you again next year, Earth Hour! :)

Fucken a long way up

... and fucken so hawt!

Hate me for saying that but I didn't quite like what I had to experience today and don't think I'll like what I'll experience the next one and a half month.

It's KKN again.

So, I with other team members did a general survey on the villages today. We were given one district which would be divided by two villages according to which group who would have most members. What I mean is my team of 15 is divided by two (8 and 7) and two divided teams will be placed in a different village but in the same district. The team with most members (8) will be placed in the village which is located up on the hill. I was going to call it a mountain 'cause seriously the road to the village on the hill from the lower village is VERY escalating and not short.

The uphill village is so called Samigaluh while the other one is called Kali Bawang. Don't bother to know the translation in English otherwise you'll end up wondering why.

Until now I still don't have the information from our supervisor in which village I will be put. I have a feeling I'll be put in the uphill one but I've been hoping otherwise. Pray with me guys!
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So, let me begin the story of the journey to the villages today. Don't worry I'm not like Foongpc who's good at writing a long text. No, I'm not ;)

I was a bit upset again this morning or should I say, this early morning! I got a text yesterday from the head of the team saying we all wud meet up at 7am near uni. Of course I reacted like I was told a bad news... guys, 7am? seriously?

Ok, eventually I managed to calm down myself lol.

But... a bit later on, my phone rang again and a text popped out on the screen.

"Time change: not 7 but 6.30..." -something like that.

Dude! That's fucken in the fucken early morning!! and bla.. bla.. bla...

Wooh... so this (early) morning I woke up. Yes, to the alarm. "6am! 6am! 6am!"

Got up 10mins later... brushed my teeth. Got cloths on. A couple of chewing gum. Hit the road.

Got at the meeting point right on time and even 10mins earlier. The head was there already then not long after that one of the girls showed up. While we waited for others, I asked them if they took a bath before they hit the road in that fucken early morning.

"Sure, I did!"
"Yea, me too!"

"Oh, cool... 'cause I didn't" ;p I mean, wud you, guys?? :))
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The clock showed 6.30 sharp. We'd all gathered and only one more person to wait. Apparently he got an excuse from the head to be coming 10mins late. How he was so lucky! I would have had 10 more mins on my bed.

Having all gathered, we started to hit the road heading off to one more place where our supervisor would be waiting. The 'meeting' with her was supposed to be at 7.30 so we had like 50mins on the way there... and honestly from where we were near the uni to the other place only takes 15mins!!

Fucken crazy! We could have just met up at 7am still! And I could have had like 30 more mins on bed... :(

Ok, ok, ok... what could I do with that? Simply nothing.

Just not on the half way to the other place, a text popped out again. Worse! The supervisor couldn't make it at 7.30 but 8. And when we got there it was still fucken 7!

Ok, the reason was still acceptable although to us it was a bit strange. Apparently she had a guest from Bandung to greet that morning. Dude, a guest at 7am?? okaaaay.... huh? can anyone believe that?

So, there we waited for her...

Oh, yes, good question, guys! Yes, it was freakin' boring!

Time flew as we just kept on gossiping her... seriously.
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She finally showed up...

"Helloooo... it's 8.30!" -No, I didn't say it loud.

I have no more energy to express my upsetness on that now... but I could have just woken up at 8, guys... hehe.
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And so I have no much more energy either to write a longer story here right now. I'm not even sure if you've read this far either...

In case you have, I'll put a bit more details. As I've mentioned a bit what the villages were pretty much like, now let me tell you briefly about the journey back to home. Just briefly.

So, after we finished surveying the lower village (Kali Bawang) we agreed to do one more survey on the uphill village (Samigaluh). The time was already almost one o'clock. We spent much time in the morning talking with students who've been doing the same program there just to share ideas about programs that our team might be able to follow up or do.

We got on each other's bike and ready to hit the road again. Small problem happened again. Apparently four of us wanted to stop the survey and just go back to the town. At the end the rest of us decided to continue the survey on the uphill village without them.

The road was freaking long and escalating! Plus, the sun was burning us up... so freakin' hawt. Although it's still better than if it rains.

We 'found' the village and were happy enough to go back home down to the town.

As we were about to leave the village, one friend yelled that I had my front tire a bit flat. And she was right to better have it pumped before I went down to reduce any risk on the road.

Luckily, it was quite easy to find the air pump. Hold on there, guys. Don't imagine an air automatic pump or diesel pump or something like that, 'cause it was a manual old-fashioned sort of pump.

"Seriously??" I mean it's not that I never use that sort of pump but I never pump a motorbike with it but only my bicycle. We tried and tried, it didn't either help or work. Instead, I lost more air from the tire. Aarrrghh... we gave up.

Luckily (again), suddenly out of nowhere, the owner came out of his house and helped us use the pump properly. Thank God! :)
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So, that was it. I did have to shorten the story as I do know how boring a long story could be when done by someone amateur like me.

Have a good day, guys!

Enjoy my suffers, Mei and Foong! :(( You guys make me wanna cry each time I suffer as you guys love it instead...

Wanna learn my language? It's so friggin' easy...

First of all let me give you a simple example of a long sentence written in my language (Indonesian).

gw g tw dmn gw td trh dwt yg dksh m nykp gw... d dmpt ksng... d kntng jg ksng... dmn y kr2? jgn2 mlh blm dksh m nykp! hmmm ms sh? kyny td dh dksh dh...

Could you read that?... or could you figure out what that was all about? Not at all? You think the sentence above was ridiculously meaningless? If you think so, sorry you're wrong. The sentence above is seriously readable and very meaningfully reasonable... mostly for the youngs ;)

Let me simplify the sentence a bit by... giving vowels? It turns out like this:

Gua ga tau dimana gua tadi taruh duit yang dikasih ma nyokap gua... di dompet kosong... di kantong juga kosong... dimana ya kira2? jangan2 malah belum dikasih ma nyokap! hmmm masa sih? kayanya tadi dah dikasih deh...

Easier to understand now? I bet so.

No, not really? Ok let me simplify a bit more... by not using youngs' language and formalizing it a bit... just a bit for now.

Aku ngga tau dimana aku tadi taruh duit yang dikasih sama ibuku... di dompet kosong... di kantong juga kosong... dimana ya kira2? jangan2 malah belum dikasih sama ibu! hmmm masa sih? kayanya tadi udah dikasih deh.

Not too formal yet to get it? Ok now let me formalize it as if you read a Learning Indonesian Language learning book.

Saya tidak mengetahui dimana saya tadi menaruh uang yang diberikan oleh ibu saya. Di dompet kosong. Di kantong juga kosong. Dimana kira-kira? Jangan-jangan justru belum diberikan oleh ibu. Hmmm, apa benar? Sepertinya tadi sudah diberikan.

Has to be clear now. So that was a very confusing quick way to learn my language by learning how to know from:

gw g tw dmn gw td trh dwt yg dksh m nykp gw... d dmpt ksng... d kntng jg ksng... dmn y kr2? jgn2 mlh blm dksh m nykp! hmmm ms sh? kyny td dh dksh dh...

to:

Saya tidak mengetahui dimana saya tadi menaruh uang yang diberikan oleh ibu saya. Di dompet kosong. Di kantong juga kosong. Dimana kira-kira? Jangan-jangan justru belum diberikan oleh ibu. Hmmm, apa benar? Sepertinya tadi sudah diberikan.

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Hey, my language is living too! Hehe...

Enjoy! :)

Stuck in one in a million. What's the million for then?

do we have an option to continue this life in someone else's body?

what are the points of humans living in this planet?

we're all sinned. we're all not perfect.

we were all created with one thing for sure to know that we would make sins.

why God keeps telling us to not make sins if we are born and meant to make ones?

it says humans are not perfect. God wants us to be perfect without sins while to be somebody without sins is impossible?

are we all the left and abandoned ones in the universe?

what are we for actually?

why must there be other planets if we can't live there but only here?

why does God not always stop people from committing suicide when God hates it?

if we can kill ourselves to stop life, what is so called faith?

do we make our own faith?

why are we the only species having different looks compared to other species in the planet?

what are we?

have we all been unconsciously under control?

what is this life?

what is the universe?

what is all of this?

...

I'm just gonna start liking this life

damn, it's not a piece of cake!

6th Monthly Review [8635]

This review, again, is very personal just for myself. This is just my own way to archive the statistic of my website, if you know what I mean.

Number of hits to my website from ClustrMap

21 Sept - 21 Oct : 355 (355)
21 Oct - 21 Nov : 418 (773)
21 Nov - 21 Dec : 573 (1346)
21 Dec - 21 Jan 09 : 788 (2134)
21 Jan - 21 Feb 09 : 604 (2738)
21 Feb - 21 Mar 09 : 5897 (8635)

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ClustrMap 21st of Feb 2009


ClustrMap 21st of Mar 2009
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5 top number of visitors to 21st of Feb 2009
United States (US) 672
Indonesia (ID) 479
Singapore (SG) 249
Malaysia (MY) 225
United Kingdom (GB) 158

8 top number of visitors to 21st of Mar 2009
Indonesia (ID) 2,700
Singapore (SG) 1,989
United States (US) 1,396
Malaysia (MY) 492
Australia (AU) 392
Canada (CA) 269
United Kingdom (GB) 226
Germany (DE) 132

Bastard!

Had another (3rd) meeting with my KKN group today and they pissed me off already.

So the meeting was supposed to be at midday and I was 10mins late. As planned and agreed we should meet at the fac of Biology where our supervisor teaches and in the lab of Parasitology to be exact. So I arrived at 12.10. There were some students but I didn't recognize them. They were not from my group. So I asked one lecturer in charge in the lab for my supervisor and she said she went out just a while before I arrived so she wanted me to wait in the lab.

I waited.

While I waited there was a couple of porn conversation between the students and another younger lecturer. I didn't mean to really listen to what they were discussing but my ears worked as normal at the time. They clearly talked porn.

"Oh, so the sperm goes inside and [bla bla bla]... through the vagina... [bla bla bla]... yea, the vagina..."

I couldn't help laughing sick inside starring at them eventually. There were like 2 girls and 2 guys. One of them was the young lecturer. The girls and the lecturer discussed it while the other guy was just silent and not responsive to the discussion.

I said to myself Dude, what is this place?!
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Anyway...

So I waited 'till 12.40 and either our supervisor or the other team members didn't show up yet. I did sense something must have gone wrong. I tried calling the head of the group but the number wasn't available, it said. I then checked again the text sent to me yesterday about the meeting regarding the place and time. And I was at the right place and time. Although I was a lil' bit late. But it's impossible that everyone else from the group including our supervisor forgot the meeting.

Until a lab staff came in and asked me what I was in the lab for. So I told him I was there for my supervisor and we should have a meeting in the lab for KKN program.

He said, "Ah, you're also for KKN. Come, let me show you the room"

I was like Huh?!? show me the room? "So, this is not the room?"

... "Oh, they moved rooms"

Whaaat??!
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When I entered the room everyone was there listening to the supervisor explaining something. And no one tried to tell me something or even got surprised that I came late. As if I was late cause I was late which is not true at all. No one seemed to be like "Didn't you know we moved rooms?"

So I had to ask one girl I sat next to. "When did you guys move to this room? I didn't get the text"

She answered as if there was nothing wrong, "Oh, no text. When we got there the lab was still used so we decided to move here. It was 12.10"

Bastard! I mean they acted like nothing had changed!

So, I wasted my 30mins in the lab waiting and no one cared? Guys, you'll have to pay for this.

Until now I'm still pissed off. I mean I had another meeting before the KKN meeting and it took me 10mins by a motorbike to get there. Yet it was super hot outside.

Karma, guys! Karma!


np: no offense to biologists out there. today was just pretty pissing me off.

Spooky nite...

I saw it! I saw it! Guys, I encountered one!

I was alone in my mum's room watching tv and suddenly I felt that the air went cold around me. I thought it was just me until I noticed something moving on the floor coming over to me. I didn't really look at it but knew there was something near me. I was too scared to move my eyes and head down to look at it. I tried hard staying calm.

The air went colder and colder. I was even too stoned to be able to yell out. Suddenly, at the point when my heart beat to the max, the thing went. The air also went normal. It wasn't on the floor any longer. It was gone.

I decided to move my feet to walk out of the room then. I didn't wanna be alone so I was thinking I should call someone to accompany me. I got off the chair and...

Suddenly... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh....

It was right in front of me!

It came back!

I went stoned...

I couldn't move...
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So, I ended up taking pics.

Had a little bit of fun again with Audrey tonight. We were just watching one of our fave tv shows. During the first 30mins we were focusing on the show and only talked to each other at every break. But our focus' gone from the last 30mins of the show. We could kind of guess how the show would end so basically it was getting slightly boring as it was getting closer to what we had guessed.

I was just sitting on the chair right in front of the tv while Audrey was playing with styling her hair with a moose and a band.

As I was pretty bored too and started to watch her instead of the tv, I asked her to come over and let me try one style that she might have liked. She did. So basically what I did was... huhhhh I'm not good at this. See the pics.

She liked it and ran outside to scare everyone. She came back in on her butt moving on the floor. Apparently she was trying to scare me too by making herself look like a handicapped ghost that couldn't walk and used its butt to move.

(Somehow I feel eerie now telling you about this) :s

I laughed of course! Stupid! What the hell is she doing?!?

Instead, I said to her "Good, now stay like that and come here"

I didn't stop there. I asked her to do some more poses. I then took some pics and picked the best looking ones. I'm gonna share 'em with you, of course!

How were they? Looking real enough?

So, at least, I could make her laugh tonight so she can sleep well too. I promised her that I'd put the pics here on my website so the better she posed the less embarrassing(ed) she could be.

This is her normal pic. I had to take this one 'cause the pic of her on the floor pretty scared me. She looked like a real 'one'. I also didn't want to make anyone think she looked that horrible. She's not. She's pretty. It wasn't actually quite easy to make her pose pretty like that but I told her that some tv shows' producers from Disney Channel might see my website and our picture so we might get a chance to have a role. She's not stupid to believe what I said but she took it fun so she still posed for the cam.
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T. Zone, Foong, what a dream come true, huh? No tuyuls but from the same 'species'... Guys, just be happy with it 'cause I seriously don't wanna meet the reals.

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How's everything going, guys? Just saw a nice movie on HBO but don't know what I actually watched as it was already fifteen minutes starting when I switched to the channel plus I don't know where they put the schedule book. As you know if you watch a movie for the first time on HBO and you're some minutes late you can hardly find out what you watch unless you have the schedule book because HBO doesn't really show "You're watching..." during the movie. I don't know why they're lovin' treating their viewers like that but it's not convenient to me.

So basically I don't know the title of the movie I just saw. Pathetic, I know. There were obviously hot Lindsay Lohan and some other actors/actresses I recognized but never really know the names. She was like having a visit to her grandma in Idaho with her mum but somehow she was dumped on the way to the town. That was the point when I started watching it so I couldn't tell you earlier story from that point.

It made me laugh several times. The girl's family was like from California so she was kind of having some culture shocks.

Anyway, just felt like updating my website with a pathetic story.

Still waiting for when the uni will decide where I'll be put with the other group members for the uni program that I talked about in the previous post. Checked their website today but still no updates yet. Probably tomorrow.

To kill some of my boring times here I have music on my ears all time today -on the bike, in the house, even in the loo.

Anyway have a great day! Heading for a nap...
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See. I wasn't so bored today. Paid off, T. Zone!

What's up with your grandma, my fellas?

What do you do when you have nothing to do aka when you're bored? Reading this I guess. Good solution. I like it that you treat my website as a boredom killer. Or not...


Aarrgghhhhh... so bored. Too bored that everything I say now is boring like Pamela Anderson wearing jeans and long sleeved shirt.

Oh, anyways, did you watch my vid above? What do you think? So this time I tried using Blogger's vid uploader. I guess it crapped! Thought of using Youtube but that would be another boredom (too usual) so I thought that trying something new would not be as boring but as it resulted a crap I guess it's even boring-er!

I admit it was so much simpler uploading the vid from Blogger but I like had to try twice because the first upload didn't work. I found out after I published the vid so I had to quickly modify aka re-upload the vid before someone noticed the mess and got confused. Although, again, it's a bit easier to upload a vid using Blogger vid uploader (I know I'm saying this like I'm being paid by the company... what a wish!)

Besides that I've been using blogger but hadn't used the vid uploader ever so maybe tonight was the right time since I was never this bored either.

Anyway, how was your day? What a question! Boriiing... d'uh.

How are you? Gimme a break.

So what then?

How's your grandma? She's fancying reading your blog! Great!

To be honest I'm not just so bored tonight but also very nervous. It's a not-excited nervous sort of feeling. Butterflies mind to stop by my stomach this time. So I guess I've been bored cause I've been nervous. I've been nervous -nervous as in you're going to have a test whose subject you hate the most- for tomorrow. Tomorrow will be one 8a.m-5p.m busy day at the uni.

Why not excited?

'Cause this is related to the main of the main reason I was so sad and not excited to come home and having to leave Singapore. This is about uni. Not really about studying in the class listening to the lecturer but more about something similar with the national service. In this case I may need to call the program 'the university service'.

Sucks.
Hate it.

The uni program's so called KKN.

I'll explain more 'bout it later when I'm in a 'better' mood.

So unhappy noooow.
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Helloo... still there?? Sorry to have bored you. Please come back again later. I promise I'll post less annoying posts. Lol like it's gonna be easy! :|
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Oh by the way I've taken off the scroll bars that used to be attached to every post I posted. I didn't take off them all though, just the first 4 posts. It was due to a little 'complaint' from a good friend of mine Marcus. He thought to have scroll bars inside a page was very inconvenient. Hope it's 'easier' now for y'all to read my posts.

Back to basic! :)

Another suicide in the same week and 'place'!? What's happening?!

I'm tempted to blog in so much details about most recent death of a staff, Mr Zhou Zheng (24) from EEE (Electrical and Electronics Engineering) whose body was found hanged last night (about 10.50pm on Friday, 6 March 2009 -Singapore time) but I think I've had enough. Not in the same week! -if you know what I mean (read this if you don't). I've been naturally a lil' disturbed in a sympathetic way as a human to read 2 tragic deaths that happened in the same week and in the same place which is EEE (campus where both 'victims' were from) NTU (Nanyang Technological University).

Marcus just informed me this tragic news by a text this evening saying

Breaking news: Zhou Zheng (24), a Chinese national, was an Infocomm Project Officer at EEE, was found hanging in the apartment balcony in Nanyang Heights, where staff and students reside. I think there's something seriously wrong happening at EEE.

a bit later in another text he said...

More details: Apparently he was from the same lab as David and joined NTU the day David died. Very strange.

Then I quickly went to my computer and typed "ntu eee china hanging" into the search engine and read the complete real news on Strait Times.



I found another website talking about the same case and left a comment there saying

What we can seriously think of right now is the solution to prevent such thing in the future. What I think best for NTU is to create a place where anyone either working or studying there can share any single problem they have privately and confidentially. I’m not sure if such place already exists in NTU.

Let’s just say
People, let’s not get inspired by any kind of suicide done by someone else who’s done it before.

I’m not saying that I’m sure the cause of both recent deaths in NTU was a real suicide. Let’s be careful. Watch our back. Think over and over about something so problematic. Try very hard to talk about it with someone or people which also can be done anonymously in some online forums. Take the positive responses and leave the negative responses far behind. It is very hard ’cause I’ve few times thought about giving up my life myself but if you really struggle and keep on struggling you still can make it. I’m not being a hypocrite here. I have my own problems and I do cry, hit my pillow, walk out the house calming down myself, get angry, shout, blog about it, but I do sometimes just think about the problems over and over until I realize there’s nothing I can do with it. SO, when I’m in that position I just have to live it.

My deepest condolence for the family and relatives.

I don't know about you but I feel a lil' terrified.

A swinging hairy weird dream

Yesterday I watched a youtube video called Are Humanzees Possible? and of course before I clicked on the thumbnail I was curious with the title already. So I watched it. I didn't have the sound on though 'cause I just didn't have my headphones with me at the time and it would be a bit too loud to use the out-speakers as this computer has been publicized aka it used to be all-mine and they moved it out so everyone could use it (sad it is).

So, the humanzee video was about human + chimpanzee sort of matter. Since I only saw the images I could just guess what the vid was actually about. I thought it was about the fact that chimpanzee is the closest family to human or human is the closest family to chimpanzee. Again I don't exactly know what it was about and am too lazy to re-watch the vid.

And just last night I had this weird dream. I dreamed about a chimpanzee.

Oh wait. Before I continue I actually watched another 'related' youtube vid talking about the hairiest man in China named Yu Zhenhuan (pic to the left). Basically the guy was... overly hairy.

So, yes I dreamed about a chimpanzee. A big chimpanzee. It actually looked like an orangutan. I wasn't really in the dream but watching these moving images with sound like a documentary vid.

The monkey kind was big just as big as an adult man. Its skin color was quite fair and its hair was red.

I then thought something like "This orangutan looks like a human. Amazing"

I was actually not so sure whether it was an orangutan looking like a human or a man looking like an orangutan. I wasn't so sure until it spoke! or should I say the guy spoke! In English!

"Huuh?? What??! A man??! This orangutan is a man?! What?"

I then suddenly remembered this tiger-man that I saw many times on tv. He modified his body so he looks like a tiger. His obsession is to be looking as closest as a real tiger by having tattoos, injections on his face, piercings, fake cat-kind of mustache, etc.

So "Is this guy also obsessed to be looking like a real orangutan?"

One more important thing. I didn't actually realize it was a man just after he spoke but also after I saw its -excuse me I need this accepted biological and scientific term sort of word- penis hanging and swinging down there! It wasn't just swinging but quite big too. Hahahaha... this is not a gay porn post. No, it's obviously not.

I was either amazed or terrified. It felt sooo weird to see a man looking exactly like an orangutan.

I wish I could picture it on a paper and scan it so I can slightly share with you what I saw in the dream. No I'm not thinking of sharing the picture of 'that'! lol

Enjoy your hairy day! Whatever it means.

Hating my days old snotty nose, chewing gums are in my mouth

It's getting better. Yeah right... after two annoyed nights.

I've had a cold since last end of week (or... last weekend?). Started with a days-cough and now plus-ed with a snotty nose.

Took syrup twice and since I thought that was enough I stopped ...just yesterday. No, I wasn't actually better and the syrup wasn't actually bitter. So not better not bitter! ...huuhh, what am I doing? 8-) --> this emoticon should be the rolling eyes (not literally rolling the eyes but that 'rolling eyes', cause a very good friend of mine Marcus told me a joke on British tv where the actor literally rolled his eyes on the floor or something like that. lol)

Anyway speak of disgusting stuff, I have like 3 t-shirts in the laundry basket dirty with my snot all over each of them. I used them as, of course, the snot wiper so I don't snot it out onto my hand and then wipe it on the t-shirt. What I'm worried now is I've had them too long (3 days now) in the basket. What if 'it' got too dried and became unwashable. Although I should also worry about how to wash them together with other non-snotty laundry of not-mine. I'll let the maid know then so she won't put them together in the same machine with others' or even mine =)

Bored.

So bored.

Still working on Marcus' translation work and almost finished now. This cold, indeed, has been affecting my work hours. No, no, no, Marcus, this is not my excuse =) I feel really guilty for not having done this work for you until now. I think and hope I can finish it by the end of the week (or... by the weekend? huh, what's so different?). So, sorry, mate!

Actually when it was like the first two days since I had the cold when I coughed all the time I felt pain inside my chest if I coughed. I was worried about it and didn't know what it was. I 'consulted' (... just a brief talk actually) with my maid she said something like this "oh, that's so normal. it's ok...".

I'm ok now but was that really ok??

Don't worry, don't bother. I know I shouldn't be thinking this way but I thought it wasn't so serious so I didn't see a doctor. I'm not giving an advice anyway...

Anyway by the way and many other ways, I'm chewing chewing gums right now so feel jealous everyone in Singapore!!! Yes, you, Marcus hehe =)) I remember you mentioned missing them on the phone earlier.


If You Seek A, I'm boring!

np: I think I shouldn't be ill so often otherwise I would be posting stuff like this all the time. My apology for any inconvenience involved when you were reading this post.

I gathered info and pictures of David Hartanto Widjaya's suicide

This Indonesian-Chinese student jumped off the roof after stabbing his own supervisor for his dissertation in his back in his office.


It happened at NTU (Nanyang Technological University), Singapore, in the morning yesterday (2nd of March). Let me just quote the news to get a more accurate info (Channel News Asia).

A final-year engineering student at the Nanyang Technological University (NTU) jumped from a campus block after stabbing a professor on Monday morning.

The professor was in his office at the engineering faculty when the student stabbed him in the back with a knife, leaving him injured.

After stabbing the professor, the male student - who was in his 20s - slit his wrists and jumped off a five-storey building.

Police said they received a call about the incident at 10.35am, and arrived to find the student dead at the bottom of the engineering block.

Eyewitnesses had also told Channel NewsAsia that a person had been stabbed, and that a student, believed to be an Indonesian-Chinese had slit his wrists before jumping off a building.

An NTU spokesman later confirmed that a final year student from the School of Electrical and Electronics Engineering was involved in the stabbing.

It, however, did not name the two people involved, and only said that their next-of-kin had been notified.

The student is said to be 21-year-old David Hartanto Widjaja and the professor is believed to be Chan Kap Luk, who was left with injuries on his back and arm.

Widjaja was a former president of the NTU Electronic Sports Club.

Prof. Chan

Professor Chan, a Singaporean in his 40s, was sent to the National University Hospital for treatment and is said to be in a stable condition.

The professor has been with NTU's School of Electrical and Electronic Engineering since June 1992.

Professor Chan, who is Deputy Director of the Biomedical Engineering Research Centre at NTU, is said to have been the supervisor of the student in a project.

NTU's president, Su Guaning, pledged to help the families of the professor and student and has mobilised its counselling professionals to help. He also said the matter will be investigated thoroughly.

"The university is deeply shocked and saddened by what has happened... The university community will rally together at this difficult time and do our utmost to help the student's family, the professor and his family, and those traumatised by the incident," added Dr Su.

Speaking to the media at the NUH in the evening, Dr Su said Professor Chan might be discharged in a few days. The stab wound in the professor's back was "deep" but no vital organs were injured. His arm was also not "too badly hurt".

It is understood that at the time of the incident, Widjaja was discussing his final-year project with Professor Chan, as he had difficulty obtaining a pass grade.

Dr Su said Widjaja was a "very good student" whose grades had slipped recently, but he was still considered above average. He said Professor Chan had expressed regret that he could not help his student earlier.

The NTU president said he hopes to prevent such an incident from happening again. "I think it's an overall pastoral care system that is necessary. We've already set up such a thing, with the Student Affairs Office, many counsellors keeping an eye on students with problems.

"Unfortunately, the student never showed that he had problems. ... We would like to review the system to see how we can pick out better students who have such problems, even if they don't communicate with others."

Latest news (March 3) from Straits Times.

DAVID Hartanto Widjaja, 21, was a bright student who came to Singapore four years ago on an Asean scholarship. But things had not seemed right lately.

His performance was slipping and he was struggling with his final-year project, which was due next month.

Nanyang Technological University (NTU) president Su Guaning told reporters yesterday that he learnt from Associate Professor Chan Kap Luk that Widjaja was having problems with his project, which was a discussion on the creation of 3-D images.

But Prof Chan said he had felt that all was not lost, and that some help was all the young man needed to pull through. NTU students have to complete this project to graduate. How well they do in it can make a difference in the honours classification of their degree.

Prof Chan, who was Widjaja's project supervisor, also supervised him through a six-month industrial attachment programme last year.

Dr Su said that Prof Chan seemed regretful and upset that if Widjaja was having problems, he had not spotted them.

A group of about 20 of the student's friends gathered on campus last evening, when they heard about his death. Many appeared shaken. Final-year electrical and electronic engineering student Hardian Setiawan, who had known Widjaja for the last four years, said he was always cheerful.

More about him emerged from his friends: They called him a 'genius' in maths who had previously represented Indonesia in the International Mathematical Olympiad.

A former president of the NTU Electronic Sports Club, he enjoyed computer gaming, they said, but he was a private person who preferred to indulge in this alone in his hostel room. He had a single-room in Hall Four, and was not known to be social.

Associate Professor Michael Heng, who taught him for one class last semester, said he remembered appointing Widjaja as a representative for his tutorial group, but he misunderstood this and thought he had been put in charge of the entire lecture group.

Prof Heng said the student approached him to say that he could not handle such heavy responsibilities. 'Although it was a misunderstanding, he stated his case clearly. I thought he was confident.' Widjaja's family arrived from Indonesia last night and met NTU officials.

Here's a statement from NTU.

A final year student, David Hartanto Widjaja, 21, from the electrical and electronic engineering school is believed to have stabbed Associate Professor Chan Kap Luk, 45, this morning, 2 March 2009, and to have subsequently fallen off the linkway between two blocks.

The ambulance and the police were called immediately. Mr Widjaja was pronounced dead. Mr Widjaja's parents and Prof Chan's family members have been notified. Prof Chan is receiving medical treatment at the National University Hospital and is recovering well.

Here's a bit of story about David as known as Ming Ming (Livinalife).

David Hartanto Widjaya, with his friends knowing him better as Ming Ming, might have just written a history for Nanyang Tech. Somehow it seems like a criticism for lecturers' way of treating their students, and the stress level a typical final year student has to suffer..

Ming Ming has been known as a carefree student by some of his peers, many people know him as a keen player of World of Warcraft 3, which is played through the local network in NTU..

Knowing him as a keen gamer, his friends had never imagined that Ming Ming would do such an act, attacking his final year project supervisor and committing suicide. A friend of mine noticed a slight change in Ming Ming about a week ago, when somehow he stopped getting into contacts with his friends, he didn't go to the details, but I'm guessing things like MSN chat and all..

While I think the attack on the professor was very well planned out, the suicide attempt was not the original idea. The way he slit his own wrist before jumping off the building from the second floor (the 'ground' floor was Basement 6) suggesting hesitation in the act. Probably he thought it was easy to suicide by slitting wrist, but we all know it isn't, people usually stopped the moment they start feeling the pain..

The university authorities called a last minute forum to find more information about this tragedy at 8pm the same day. Hopefully by tomorrow morning we can get the big picture of the tragedy..

He was such a bright student and must have been very educated as he got in NTU by a scholarship. What's so strange is why such an educated person would do something like that? The problem must have been really serious. It could also be the 'environment' surrounding him that supported his act. I'm not assuming anything so serious to create a controversy but trying to analyze the case so maybe there's something we can learn from this.

Anyway, a very good friend of mine Marcus who is also a NTU student was very close to the 'crime scene'. He was also at the campus when the incident happened. In fact he was having a meeting. We were talking about it online a few hours after that. I could understand that he was in 'shock'. Who would not be? He even went to the 'crime scene' and noticed some blood on the ground.

What a tragic. All I can and would like to say is I hope he rests in peace up there while the lecturer gets better as well.

Just regret a bit. Why had to be an Indonesian? I only hope this won't create a worse image of Indonesian people in other countries. The fact that David stabbed his lecturer could be done by anyone. So, let's not think it had to do with his nationality or race.

Some pictures by Strait Times.

Add.: What's a bit scary is that I used to use the way to go from Electrical and Electronics Engineering campus to SCI campus (just a building next to EEE) and use the bridge where he jumped off and take the lift and get off where the body was found, before I found a shorter way. I felt eerie at one point to know the scene was a place I used quite a lot.

Update (11pm March 3 Singapore time) from Marcus (taken from his comment to this post):

"Apparently the reason he killed himself was because his scholarship was revoked for some reason.

I knew that last Saturday I chatted for almost an hour with an Indonesian student from Jakarta. I didn't remember his name but I remember it was a Christian one. I just spoke to someone who was in the same place and it was confirmed that this was David. Although I don't really know him this really hits home.

He was a straight-A student on a scholarship. His supervisor wasn't the reason he lost his scholarship but was an easy target."

Here I give more details and facts about David's death. I took this from one of the comments below made by ladiesman-217 (March 6, 2009 10:32 PM). I'm not saying I agreed with it but just giving you another perspective of the case. Read it, it's very interesting. Trust me.

Hello, first thing's first I would like to share information with you that might not have been responsibly conveyed to you all. Judging from the way you comment on David's death I am certain that the new facts and evidence that has been witnessed by David's parents and confirmed by Singapore police - has yet to reach you, which I understand was NOT so fervently reported by any Singapore media as the allegations made by Singapore media (Yes the media and not the local police)
1. The reports Singaporean media made on David's wristwound slit is FALSE.
According to an interview by Radio ElShinta and RCTI (respectively the two are very reputable Indonesian Radio and Television News Channel)There are no wounds what so ever in David's wrist.
And to add to the question, David himself suffered wounds on his neck (throat?) and back similar to that of SLASHES from a sharp object (the knife everybody's talking about and yet so scarcely seen)
2. Statement made about David's depression over the revocation of his scholarship - which would lead to his alleged actions, AGAIN IS FALSE.
David already informed his parents about his declining
achievement and his probable situation of losing his scholarship from 3-4 weeks prior to his death. And his family,
being a middle economy family here in Indonesia already expressed that they have no objections whatsovever in paying
his last semester's tuition fee - as stated in the same Indonesian radio and television interview . So again, Singapore media
has misguided you by stating otherwise - that "David kept his parents in the dark on the termination of his scholarship"
- this also concludes that the so called David's so depressed about his study that he resolved on attacking his
FYP professor can - IN THE BEST INTEREST OF RATIO AND REASON - be ruled out or DAVID DID NOT HAVE A MOTIVE TO
ATTACK OR KILL HIS PROFESSOR.
link: http://video.okezone.com/play//2009/03/05/236/7951/keluarga-nilai-kematian-david-penuh-kejanggalan

On the contrary, has anyone sees the professor lately? How come anything that has been accounted for was solely HIS statements,
without any regard to the evidence such as :
1. Whose fingerprints are there on the weapon (knife) and why is the handle of the knife which will surely contain
fingerprints are reported and seen missing in the crime scene photographs?
2. Why was the blood stains so quickly removed from the crime scene, in less than 24 hours by the time David's parents arrived at the office of professor Chan Kap Luk - it has already seemed THAT THE CRIME SCENE HAS BEEN WIPED CLEAN OF BLOOD STAINS AND EVIDENCE! How on earth then would the Singapore police determine whose blood was on what? (including door handle, students documents, professor's documents, etc.)and how would they have any clues on how to reconstruct the murder? In my commoners point a view this already looks like an attempt to tamper with the crime scene - and no I am not a fan of the CSI series.
3. Where are the forensic photographs of the professor's so called stab wound? A singapore media interview with an Indian-Singaporean student states that when he saw the professor ushered to the ambulance what he was able to see was bandages on his shoulder and chest?
4. What are the content of the professor and David' s conversation that has triggered the attack?
It's impossible for an attacker to have no reason for attacking - especially since it is believed that David HAS NOT PRE-MEDITATE his actions - judging from his friends statements who had found him still logged in to the internet to access hisFaceBook until late hours (2:00 AM) AND the fact that he brought a backpack containing a towel and a bottle of drink that his parents has so fervently advise him to regularly take to nourish his body after his actively tiresome days.

With all due respect, I, speaking as David Hartanto Widjaja's fellow Indonesian and fellow SMUK BPK Penabur alumni,that THE SINGAPOREAN MEDIA REFRAIN FROM MAKING SUCH PREJUDICED STATEMENT EVERYTIME THEY BROADCAST NEWS ABOUT DAVID HARTANTO WIDJAJA and CEASE ALL ATTEMPTS TO CONCEAL FACTS AND EVIDENTS THAT WOULD EVENTUALLY LEAD TO THE TRUTH OF WHAT
HAPPENED ON THE FATEFUL DAY DAVID HARTANTO WIDJAJA WAS CONDEMNED TO HIS DEATH.

I understand that you Singaporeans are all reasonable people and are a very proud nation. And with these bearings
in mind, I certainly am sure you do not wish to tarnish your international image with such unadmirable doings.
Therefore, I ask again that you, as a nation, to PUSH YOUR GOVERNMENT TO COMMENCE A THOROUGH AND TRANSPARENT regarding
this case, FOR YOUR OWN COUNTRY'S SAKE AND FOR HONORING THE MEMORY THE DEPARTED DAVID HARTANTO WIDJAJA. Any less would
be a crime and humiliation to the dead.

I also wish you to know that I do not personally know David Hartanto Widjaja nor his family, thus trying to defend him. I am simply laying the facts for you since I know, even until this day, I have not seen ONE Singapore media that has made corrections for their mis-information be it deliberate or un-deliberate. As an Indonesian, sure I would like him to be innocent, but as an objective observer I gain no advantage if this case point towards either David or the professor. I also state that I have not studied in Singapore ever or take part in any business venture there, and there is no way I would have known or met professor Chan Kap Luk - therefore I have no reason whatsoever to despise him or be classified as his enemy.

links :
http://manusialempung.blogspot.com/2009/03/fact-about-david-hartantos-incident.html
http://manusialempung.blogspot.com/2009/03/another-speculation-logical-thinking.html

Oh yes, if you are still speculating about his mental condition my advice is to try this address : http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=54863351036&ref=mf

There you can see that his friends statements so far that he is a positive, outgoing and cheerful person is not an exagerration (Use google translator if you do not speak Bahasa, Malaysian are considered to will have less trouble in reading this since you speak Melyu am I correct?). I am posting this to counterbalance the only polaroid photo with him on a red background and a sad (or troubled or anything that may come across your mind) expression on his face which Singapore Media has let "speak".

Here's my latest opinion of David's case due to the most current comments I received (March 7, 2009 9:50 AM).

To be honest guys, after reading all the current comments I am now a little confused in a way that I don't know which story I should believe. Every comment you posted has reasonable reasons to be true.

If he did not kill himself, who did? There were at least 5 witnesses saying he jumped off the roof. I've been around the place where he jumped. The uni fence is not really 'that' easy to climb but if you try to climb it it's possible. So if some of you think that he might have just fallen off by accident, someone must have pushed him from behind. But that's not what the witnesses have seen. David was alone.

It could be just that he did what's called a responsibility. After he stabbed the prof he might have been sure that the prof was dying and going to die. If he just ran away that would not help him with nothing but even a bigger problem. So he might have thought of killing himself and in fact he did just to be responsible.

A real criminal in his position after stabbing someone would just run away and hide. That is a real criminal. Some decide to kill themselves because it's part of their responsibility of what they've done.

It's not that I'm not good...

... at puzzles.

I went to a supermarket near home with dad and niece to get regular things that will be needed for the next one week. Since this was my first time after months I prioritized my personal needs. I finally bought a shampoo, tooth paste, etc.

Audrey (my niece) wanted Honey Stars cereal and just next to it on the same shelf there was Koko Krunch Duo (duo means including white choco). So I bought Koko Krunch. I don't actually have cereal regularly but it was not the cereal but the bonus that I'd get if I bought it. So I dropped it in the trolley quite quickly.

Said on its box a puzzle game of Dinosaur 3D!

I like puzzles.

I got home and quickly opened the box and started the puzzle while having the cereal as a snack. Here's the picture as you can see. In the picture I'm just starting the body of the dino. I guess it was a so-called Stegosaurus as it said on the box too ;D How magical I was if I could know every name of dinosaurs without a 'script'.

Hmmm... here's the result. To be honest it wasn't easy and was pretty fragile as the pieces are made of solid paper not plastic. Some corner slightly got torn up as I pulled the other corner too hard. Very fragile even if it wasn't a detail work. Well at least it's standing though the pic on the box looks much better. I'm not saying it's that bad or a big failure. It still can stand and of course roar too like a real dinosaur.

My nephew bought one as well the other day and got another type of dinosaur. He's not started the puzzle so tomorrow I might be doing it.

It's not that I'm not good at puzzles but I'm just not sure sometimes if I do it right.

Enjoy!